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December 1, 2015 - The Sixty Fifth Year....

I have moved into the second half of my 65th year with several months of non-blogging the adventures and the journey.  The adventures have been over the top and perhaps I will return to share about them at a later date.   Like each year of our lives, time just flies past us.  We are each given 24 hours in a day.  In my case those hours are not slow but a blur and a rush  The calendar pages turn too fast. 

I have so much to be thankful for.  I am blessed beyond words with family, friends and life's conveniences.  I have traveled the world this year.  I have been to places that were not even on my 'bucket' list,  but opportunity opened up and I jumped in.  But just now I am just not in a thankful place.

It is just past midnight and I cannot sleep. I have gone to bed, tossed and turned and tossed and turned and tossed and turned. I gave up and here I am, writing.  In spite of my blessings my heart is heavy.  One would ask why?  I lack for nothing! 

People!  People are the reason my mind won't shut off.  I generally love people.  I am a people person. I am energized by people.  I love to give to people.  I love to encourage people.  I love to help people.  So why am loosing sleep?

In my human effort to please people, I come up short every time.  This imperfect world that we try to make perfect,  leaves each of us longing, whining, striving, demanding, hoping that it will be just that, perfect.  It never will be perfect.  People will let us down, demand more than we can give, take us for granted, be fickle and leave those of us that try to please, weary. 

I turn to the one source that leads to me right thinking.  The Bible, God's written word to us.  He knows my journey here is temporary and I live in a broken creation.  He knows that I must come to the end of my self and seek Him before my perspective of the day to day frustrations will be understood.    Heaven will be my time to know contentment and until that time, I ask to be forgiven for my attitude and cling to this promise.

^"Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up." Galatians 6:9 (Bible)

 “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” John 16:33 (Bible) 

"I will lift up eyes to the mountains, where does my help come from? 
My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth.  Psalm 121:1,2 (Bible)